Isn't it amazing how God guides?
I have trouble with normal human sleeping habits. I always have, from birth, and it all waxes and wanes. I'm still alive, still relatively healthy, so it's not that bad.
I started this blog to ask sleep, 'Why do you elude me so?' I meant this with humor, but God actually answered me a little. I don't know the overarching reasons why my circadian rhythm is set to nocturnal, insomnia is a frequent visitor, I often oversleep alarms so I know I may not wake up when I would like, and stress exasperates the entire situation.
Me, currently, after this sleepless night. I don't look bad, do I?
But I do know God is in control.
I also know I apparently can't spell when I'm tired because spell check told me I misspelled four words already. Okay, now they're fixed.
There's been several times God has caused me to have insomnia... only to lead me to some Truth during my sleepless time, or to lead me to prayer or Bible time during the night just to demonstrate "But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint." (Isaiah 40:31) when I am able to function on no sleep for 48 hours and feel fine. (this isn't one of those times. :) )
And there's been times when my nocturnal nature has been downright great. Like when a friend has an emergency at 3am and I can be there for her, or just getting to talk to Ryan more since when it's night here it's day in India.
Last night was great, and I may blog on it later, but basically I'm over at my friend Hannah's house. We started visiting yesterday at dinner time and decided I'd spend the night. We stayed up into the am hours anyway, then she went to bed. I talked to Ryan for a while, and watched the Royal Wedding. When the happy couple left Westminster Abbey, I turned off the tv and tried to sleep. It didn't work. I wasn't sleepy at all. Exhausted, yes. My body is say 'please, please, please sleep, won't you?' But my brain says 'Sleep? Sorry, I don't think I have that in stock. Try again later, maybe it'll come in.'
So I went and grabbed one of Hannah's books. I often read until the tension leaves and then you can set it down, close your eyes and...
I'm now on page 93 of 205. (I am a really, really fast reader.) I may be able to finish it before I leave...
I also was able to read my Bible selection for the day, and pray about something I was considering doing and get an answer. He answered me while I was in the middle of writing my blog, which caused me to go back and change it. He is so awesome like that!!
So now I'm pretty sure I can here Hannah getting up, which confirms that I will not be going back to sleep here... though I do hope to catch some Zzz before Bible Study tonight!