This week has been so sobering.
There's the obvious stuff, my health concerns and biopsy. But it goes way beyond that.
I just found out about the agony a friend of mine is going through: her adoption fell through. The birth mother changed her mind. I am just aching for her and her husband.
Tonight at Bible Study the prayer request list was soo long. I mean, I am very, very glad we all could pray for those, together, sharing our burdens. And some of them weren't exactly tragic (safe travel for example). But looking at the prayer requests of others often sobers us.
I read a lot this week, but the reading has my brain searching. I spent this morning wailing and crying in Ryan's arms (really curled up in a recliner while on the phone with him, but it felt like his arms he was so soothing) about my limitations and what feels like my inability to make a difference for Christ in this world.
I've been reading about the trip of a blogger I follow to Cambodia, where she's served with a ministry rescuing children from the sex trade. The staggering statistics and sorrowful stories...
Norway this morning on news. I feel for the Norwedgian people. Terrorism is so ugly.
My grandfather is in the hospital. I'm praying hard.
Serious, thought compelling, heart wrenching talks about adoption (before I even heard about the couple above's heartache.)
Just so many little things. Tiny isolations, disappointments, surprises.
And there's been good things too. Ways that God has been comforting, sheltering, moving. A girl we prayed for is out of the hospital. This morning when I'm in emotional pain and wailing the song "And if God is for us/Who could ever stop us?/And if our God is with us/What could stand against?" reminds me it's not about my limitations at all. He's limitless.
That's what I'm clinging to, and I want to share with all of you.
God is limitless. LIMITLESS. There is no end to the Hope we find in Him. So if you're having a hard week too (or a good one) just cling to that. God is LIMITLESS. And He loves us.
I take comfort in these two Truths:
"Or what man is there among you who, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent? If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!" Matthew 7:9-11
"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose" Romans 8:28
Together we know that since all things work together for the good of those who love God, and if we're calling out to God and asking Him for things and he'd never give us a snake when we ask for a fish... All the trials and sufferings of our life are meant for good, and nourish us like bread or fish, not like a stone or snake. Sop even though we might know why we're going through something or why we're helplessly watching someone we love hurt, we can remember it'll all work together for God's good.