I am basically off the grid this week. And not by choice.
It was a very crazy timing. Well not crazy, it was obviously God. I had just read the latest newsletter from the grad school I want to go to, Regent College in Vancouver. I've signed up to get things from them, and pray for the right time to go (which I think won't be for years). But I pretty much adore them, they are the only grad school I've ever been able to see myself going to, and I think I'm called to go there... and so anyway, I was reading their latest newsletter, which was covering the theme of Christianity and technology.
One theme that came up in a few articles was the concept of a sabbath or selah from our technological things. Admittedly, I have no cell phone (for a few months now, because I'm broke) and since I get dial up at home, I'm not exactly a youtube junkie. But I love my blog and facebook (which God has blessed to be a ministry for me.) I am confident God has given me this blog as work. But you are, I suppose, supposed to take sabbaths from it, so I was pondering that.
Then I was online a few hours later, and I got accidentally disconnected... and I couldn't reconnect. Our phone got cut off, and we can't get it back on for a week. With our phone, since we have dial up, we lose both phone and internet. Since I don't have a cellphone, this means I'm entirely cut off. Since I live in a rural area and don't own a car, this is devastating. And since my beloved Ryan lives in India and internet and phone are the only way we communicate, this will be rough.
Then today, while I was in the middle of watching it, the television cut off too.
Since my netbook has been acting up from some insane malware, so I can't take it to a wifi hotspot, I really don't have a way to get online. How am I online now? Well, I'm at my friend Tabitha's house. She's graciously let me use her computer. (Thank you!) But I won't see her again until after this is over, I think, so this is it.
So I have to embrace what seems to be a certainty. I'm taking a selah from the internet... and the phone... and the television. I am trying to keep in touch with Ryan by borrowing my sister's phone, but she prefers I keep it at like one minute a day. So at least I'll know if something happens to him, but that's about it.
However, I was reading and praising God after the television went out. And this won't be so bad. It's just the 'it's not of my own choosing' and the long distance relationship that's really getting me. I always enjoyed power outages growing up because I like just disconnecting from tech for a while and spending real time with my family, reading, and playing board games. It will be okay.
But I will miss you, and I will most especially miss Ryan. Darling, I love, love, love you.