Friday, September 30, 2011

So Not Me

For a while I've been working full-time on waiting. That is a hard, hard job.

But this week, suddenly some of my waiting was met with God's faithfulness. He has stepped up and made some things suddenly clear, giving me paths of action! A lot of it is just learning and research. But I'm going forth with vision. It is so exciting!

I am still waiting on many, many things. But suddenly I have such faith it's all going to happen. I haven't had a job in eighteen months and Ryan is unemployed and hoping, hoping to find a job that makes half of what he'd make on minimum wage here. I have no assets and I have bills I have no idea how I'll pay... And yet I know God will provide, and I'll move to India, and I'll devote my time and energy to His work. That is SO not me, that's all Him. I just don't have that kind of faith... except He's given it to me.

God's been holding me in His hands. I have become such a creature of anxiety. He's been giving me confidence to go forward and trust in His plan for me.  He goes before me, and makes my paths clear. I can rest in His peace and I find His voice.

After all, it is not I who live but Christ who lives in me.  I've been singing that to myself today.  I am so glad it's true.  He is my amazing God. I love Him so!

Beholding Glory


  1. I'm not good at waiting - it is hard not to wait & panic. I'm glad you have felt God's directing at this time & pray that you would will see God's hands everywhere working.

  2. I suspect most of us need help in the waiting area. But those glimpses of hope and faith in God urges us to keep asking and waiting. So thankful you have that glimpse. God has great things in store for you!


  3. Pamela, I'm fully acquainted with the word "waiting", but as I do wait, the Lord is teaching me lessons that I wouldn't have learned otherwise. Just follow the way of "faith, hope, and love" - "faith that worketh by love" - for this is always His way. He resides there.
    You've beautiful words to write about Him in this post. It's His grace that He put into your heart.
    Have a blessed weekend,

  4. I hate waiting..but your post reminds me He's always there....bringing stuff out exactly at the right time and never forgets. Glad that things are coming together for you....


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