For a while I've been working full-time on waiting. That is a hard, hard job.
But this week, suddenly some of my waiting was met with God's faithfulness. He has stepped up and made some things suddenly clear, giving me paths of action! A lot of it is just learning and research. But I'm going forth with vision. It is so exciting!
I am still waiting on many, many things. But suddenly I have such faith it's all going to happen. I haven't had a job in
eighteen months and Ryan is unemployed and hoping, hoping to find a job
that makes half of what he'd make on minimum wage here. I have no assets and I have bills I
have no idea how I'll pay... And yet I know God will provide, and I'll
move to India, and I'll devote my time and energy to His work. That is SO not me, that's all Him. I just don't have that kind of faith... except He's given it to me.
God's been holding me in His hands. I have become such a creature of anxiety. He's been giving me confidence to go forward and trust in His plan for me. He goes before me, and makes my paths clear. I can rest in His peace and I find His voice.
After all, it is not I who live but Christ who lives in me. I've been singing that to myself today. I am so glad it's true. He is my amazing God. I love Him so!