|Me in my shell... er, old beat-up hoodie.|
I don't feel good. I'm home sick again. I'm not sure if it's the same thing I had Friday, because while I'm still stuffed up, now I just feel weak. I was doing chores yesterday and felt like I needed a little break so I lay on my bed and read... half an hour... forty-five minutes later I still couldn't persuade my body it was time to get back up and go back to work. I just felt weak and wiped out. Since I had work in the morning, I thought, I guess I should just rest. So I told my mother what was going on and curled up in bed.
Then insomnia hit me and I tried and tried and tried and couldn't sleep. This made me cry a little. It felt my body was an out of control toddler throwing a fit and wouldn't obey me at all.
When I woke up this morning I knew I couldn't get out of bed, let alone go to work. Blessedly, my phone is right next to my bed, so I called out from work and then fell asleep and slept until my dog demanded I get up at four in the afternoon.
When I came out my mom said I'm an awful color. I snuggled deeper in my hoodie and that's about all I'm capable of today... except for reflecting meaningfully on interesting internet articles in an email to a friend where I used such words as "proclity". Yay, my intelligence didn't break when my body did.
On Friday I definitely had a cold, and I felt better on Saturday... but we're thinking I was exposed to something new in my weakened state and that's what this is. Lord, have your way. Blessedly, I don't have to work again until Wednesday, so I have another day to get over this without having to let my job down again.
I was musing with a friend about how sometimes sickness is God's way of saying "Take time to rest in me." That's probably part of this. And part is just that I feel a turtle or hermit crab and my instinct is screaming "RETREAT TO YOUR SHELL! RETREAT TO YOUR SHELL!"
So that's what I'm doing. But not until I do an "I'm Blessed" post next, which will be much more upbeat. But I wanted to tell you what was going on and figured I'd not mix the two posts. I also have a great link to share with y'all...