For those of you who keep up, you know Ryan did not start his job on Monday. He emailed them to confirm the timing for this training, only to be told that they didn't have enough people to begin training. (They didn't tell him this until he emailed them a few hours before he was scheduled to show up). He hasn't heard back since. He's looking into other jobs now.
Waiting is so hard. So hard. And we'd been waiting and waiting for Ryan to get a job, and finally he had gotten one! And it was so good because we could check off that box on the list of hundreds of things that have to happen for us to marry. One of hundreds, but an essential, important check mark. It was a prerequisite check mark to so many more things on our list.
And now that little square is still blank.
So this week, I'm combining my preparation Thursday post with a Thankful Thursday post because in light of this severe disappointment what my heart needs to prepare itself for the future is to thank God for what I do have, not focus on what we're aching for...
Thank you, Lord, for Hope. It is so essential. No matter how this is going, hope is real.
Thank you, Lord, for Grace. You know I need it daily, and especially last night.
Thank you, Lord, for the Bible. I'm really enjoying checking off books for the Bible in 90 days challenge! I'm midway through Luke now, with a few more weeks to go. We can do this! (I say we because I know you are with me.)
Thank you, Lord, for our cats. They are delightful. Cinnamon is going to be so happy this evening when Alison gets here.
Thank you, Lord, that I get to attend my first wedding of the year tomorrow! You know how I adore weddings. It will definitely lift my spirits.
Thank you, Lord, for agreeing to be my burden bearer. Help, help, help me not to lift back up burdens you have already agreed to carry. I know I really suck at letting things go.
Thank you, Lord, for this job I've applied for this summer. I get so excited thinking about it. Lord, either let me get it or help me not to set my heart so much on it. I am really bad at this balanced thing!
Thank you, Lord, for this past weekend. Good Friday was so blessed! Saturday too! Easter was great! Help me dwell on the positive things of the past, not on the negatives. In this way let me embrace Hope. Let my leaves remember the life giving sunshine, not the brutal winds that whipped me but didn't tear me from you, the vine.
Thank you for the beautiful spring outside! It's lovely.
Thank you for being you. And for this blog and all the people reading this. Bless them. Be with them. Love on them. Thank you that I know you're happily doing all those things!
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The Ramblings of Mrs Hargrave