Friday, August 3, 2012
Send Me a Coach?
I have been devouring it, watching gymnastics, fencing (I did sabre in college), swimming, volleyball, rowing, kayaking, canoeing, water polo, basketball, diving, cycling... basically a little of everything. Did you know trampouline is an Olympic sport? I sure didn't! But I'll be checking it out.
So the other morning I had the Olympics on and was talking to God. I had just sinned a particular sin... again. I was down, and really struggling with this... And my conversation with God went something like this:
God, I messed up again. It's like I keep falling down. And I know it's not about how much I fall, but how often I get back up... but I just keep falling! It's like one of these athletes-- God, I need a coach! This was an electric thought. Someone to encourage me, to tell me I could do it, push me past my artificial psychological limits. Maybe that's you, Holy Spirit, I said, thinking of the role of Counselor. Or maybe another Christian. But I need someone, a coach. And then I got insecure, thinking of how an athlete harnesses their body's power, but I should rely on God's power and not my own. But you give the athletes their body and power when they were born, so it comes from you. And maybe you gave me this power, your power, the power to succeed at my rebirth? Another electric thought.
A short while later Ryan called. I mentioned my sin to him, but not my prayer. And he got determined. He challenged me to put this sin aside. He got fierce and loving. He pushed me.
"Did you know you just answered a prayer?" I asked my future husband.
After getting off the phone I knew it was time to spend time with God. I felt Him guiding to work in a Bible Study book... and the very first sentence was relevant to me!
Later I took a different book I was working in out in the lawn, sitting in an adirondack chair in the shade. And again God was so present. I was journaling to questions in the book and God was there, answering with me. And He was there in our neighbor's cat, purring and snuggling my hand. And He sent an enchanting pair of goldfinches to delight me. And He whispered of His love and tenderly wooed my heart. I get tears threatening to fill my eyes, He is so sweet! He is so good!
I guess for Faith Filled Friday I just wanted to share with you how amazing God is!