I have been struggling with balance when dealing with my blog... and life.
As I stood there I thought of what I've been doing with my blog. See, I have a dream for it. As I've told you before, someday I want to be a homeschooling mom. I also don't think it's a secret I adore blogging. When in the spring I saw a blog not awfully dissimilar to mine selling an ad space for a fairly large price I was totally floored. I didn't even realize that it was possible.
Truth be told, I was already a blogger for life. So suddenly I had a vision of being able to help my family financially doing something I love so much I would already do it for free, and by doing it freeing me to invest into something priceless (my not yet existent children.) And since I have been un or under employed for... well, actually, always (though I wasn't expecting living wage until I graduated college four and a half years ago) the idea of even making like $20 a month with consistance nearly has me in tears. I've been so broke for so long.
So I've thrown myself into building my blog, while at the same time always staying conscious of the purpose and essence of my blog: to not only glorify the Lord but to have this be Christ's blog. His, not mine. Just as I am not my own, but was bought with a price. And God has blessed me. I had 19 GFC followers in May; I have 95 now, plus other followers through methods I wasn't even using then. But I knew the balance was off.
God has been speaking to me about authenticity the last couple weeks and believe me I have tried and tried to write to you and didn't succeed. Actually it's 11:58pm, so I'm not even going to get this published today, Monday, even though this is the first More Than This Monday.
So last night, I was worshipping and God just gripped me and I was erupting with love and He showed me the balance.
I had lost sight of the fact I blog for hearts, not eyes.
I've been growing my blog through link-ups, sponsors, giveaways, networking, social media.... and none of that is bad. I don't feel, at this time, that the Lord is asking me to stop any of it. No, what needed the overhaul was why.
God used the events of the last few days and weeks to show me where the change has to be... it was like, as I closed my eyes in worship He used a spotlight on elements of those moments and it became so clear.
I met on Saturday, in person, an etsy artisan who I've enlisted for my next giveaway. I shared with her the good that was done for Alison of JbyA, the donor of the earrings in my blogiversary giveaway. And God highlighted my joy at helping her. I should be doing giveaways for the joy of helping those who generously help me, and for joy of getting to hook up one of you with an awesome prize.
And I remembered the joy of finding a new blog I identified with that is open to swapping; regardless of whether the swap would benefit me, I just ache to make that connection.
And I suddenly remembered how over a year ago when I was aching to find my niche in the blogosphere. I couldn't find it, so I decided to name my own niche: the Songs on the Way is a relational blog.
Now I've found my niche in the blogosphere vernacular (I think) I'm a Christian lifestyle blogger.
But at the core, relational is way more what this blog is about. I want to connect with you. I want to pour myself out. I want to love, love, love. I want to give you Jesus.
So this this the first More Than This Monday. Next week, there will be a link-up. I hope you'll join me.
I could probably say more, but it's 1:30 in the morning and I'm exhausted.